Inner GPS

I got out of whack with my energy, and spent two whole nights in one week with no sleep at all, staying up to greet a new day.  This is not sustainable obviously.  So new practice is put into place to organize tango life around work and life.

I recommend it!  Sleep at a routine time, fewer and better milongas, fewer and better dances.  Only dancing when it feels right, and the music/partner/mood equation suits. I would like to add a consistent practice and some brilliant lessons. But I will choose work first if a choice has to be made.

Looking around there are examples everywhere of people abandoning careers, creative work, family, relationships, and life opportunities for tango.  I understand it, but am not going with them.  I also realized that I like leaders who are leaders in more than one way.  I only feel my woman's role in a way that rings true for me when he has that quality.  I can only be myself in my way of dancing when that quality is there.  I cannot describe except to steal from someone this idea:  The man draws the picture and the woman fills in the colors.  Now there is an analogy that takes my mind beyond the words.

Of course, it takes time for all of us to find the place, our place, and to grow into it. I am happy to grow along with others, but the path has to be clear in some way, no wandering around in the brambles with someone who has no inner GPS either in dance or life, or who at least is looking for the directions. 

With more rest, routine and summer rain to calm things down, the path looks much much clearer.

(Does anyone remember the episode of the great series "Northern Exposure" when, during the period of 24 hour daylight in the summer, in Alaska, Joel Fleishman goes nuts from having so much energy, and so little sleep?)  That happens in Seattle a little bit too, and I think it affects me rather significantly....